2020 has definitely brought challenges, some small but many great, to all of us, and these challenges test us, push us, and sometimes almost…almost…break us. But it is these great challenges of life that also bring us the biggest opportunities to grow within, to change internally.
This 2020 Reflections post is part of the Litebeing’s Change Challenge with the theme: How have you changed internally? Can you share some new thoughts, ideas, projects, attitudes that have sprung up as a result of your evolution (of the past year of 2020)?
Today’s post begins a new blog journey for me. After many restrictions over the past few years (I’d had Saturn sitting on my Ascendant and slowly shuffling through my first house in Western Astrology for four, yes four, years), I now, just in the past week or so, finally have the time, space, energy, and circumstances to return to regular blogging and writing, among other things. This renewed freedom seemed to be opening up at the beginning of 2020, as I started a Depth Year with many goals and aspirations, bolstered by Jupiter’s jovial energy in my first house. But knowing Saturn had the upper hand in their dance together in Capricorn, I had a feeling I was not yet free of the restrictions I’d been patiently working with. And then came March 2020, and the rest of the year was, well, even more challenging.
The biggest change that has come from these difficult times is greater acceptance of what is now/at a given moment, and increased patience and letting go when I couldn’t get something or much of anything done. Schools closing down and not having just that little bit of time I had to be creative and productive alone, in silence, and not multi-tasking (I have a 3 year old) put a damper on many of my goals: creatively, with client work, with personal/healing needs, and with things around the home. All I could do was accept, be patient, do what I could during dwindling nap times, and appreciate that we were healthy, happy, and doing just fine compared to so many who have been struggling with much greater challenges throughout this past year.
Of course many new thoughts and ideas sprang up over the past 10 months (I’m a Sagittarius Ascendant after all!), and though I did complete and publish The Scrying Poetry Tarot last Spring (it was nearly done before shutdowns), I have not yet completed other projects, especially my book on Schizophrenia and an Oracle deck, that I expected to. And though at first there was a lot of frustration, by letting go of wanting to get things done, and instead flowing with the patient divine timing of Saturn’s wisdom, I can feel within as well as see astrologically, that things will take place, come together, and be accomplished when it is best for them to do so. It just might not be when I want them to.
For deeper reflection on how I’ve changed internally, I thought I’d pull a card from The Scrying Poetry Tarot:
Well, I think that sums it up perfectly!
It’s nice to be officially 🤞🏼back blogging! For some Holiday Cheer & New Years Magical Intention Setting for Prosperity in 2021, check out the following videos: 🎄