Who am I? This physical brain is not posing the question, who is Julianne Victoria, but who is the “I” that lies behind the individual identity and separate physical body that is experiencing the typing of these words? Who am “I”?
In my post A Vessel of the Divine on the blog Blazing Light of Glory, which this body-mind co-creates with my Course in Miracles study-buddy Lisa of BloomLisa, I discuss how the body, including the individual mind in the physical brain, is how we mostly identify ourselves. The separation from God, Nature, and others that the individual mind believes, however, is just an illusion. This is a very challenging concept for the individual body-mind, the ego. However, what can be even more challenging is understanding who am “I”.
Firstly I’d like to point out that the ego, by which I mean the individual identity connected to each of our bodies and minds, is not something to hate. I feel many “spiritual people” are so attached to not being an ego and putting down others for being an ego, that they don’t see that they are letting their own egos control them. As the saying goes: The mind [ego] is a good servant, but a poor master.
As long as we are existing in and participating in this earthly world, we have to have an ego. The ego (which by the way, comes from Latin ego and means “I”) is how we function in this individual existence. I cannot be me interacting with all of you without having an ego to identify with. Until the day comes when I leave this body-mind – this ego – behind, I must experience and interact with others in this world through the vehicle of the ego. That is what it is for. However, a great lesson that we are all here to learn is to understand that the “I” behind the separate individual that we call the ego is truly who we all are.
Mooji is very good at pointing out that there is nothing else nor nothing within our awareness if there is not “I” there first. There is no awareness of you, without “I” being there first. There is also no awareness of me, without “I” being there first. “I” is who is aware that my ego exists. “I” is the awareness. “I” is Consciousness. “I” is God. “I” is Divine. “I” is. “I” am.
In A Course in Miracles, the underlying lesson and message of the Course is that God, through the actions and intentions of love, forgiveness, and gratitude, is within each and every one of us. Lesson 283: My True Identity Abides In You: Now we are one in shared Identity, with God our Father as our only Source, and everything created part of us. And so we offer blessings to all things, uniting lovingly with all the world, which our forgiveness has made one with us. We are all the children of God and extensions of Source, interconnected beings within the web of existence. We are one “I.”
God said unto Moses, I AM THAT I AM. ~ Exodus 3:14
Love says ‘I am everything.’ Wisdom says ‘I am nothing.’ Between the two, my life flows.
~ Nisargadatta Maharaj, I Am That
We all go by different names. Naming, labeling, and categorizing people, animals, plants, and all things in this physical world makes it easier for us to manage, function in, and experience life here on earth. We even give thousands of names to the non-physical because it helps our brains/minds to grasp intangible, etheric, and ephemeral concepts, yet beyond this, if we take all names away and see all as an interconnected Universe, we see that all names are names of God. All is God. All is One.
From ACIM Lesson 262: Let Me Perceive No Differences Today: Why should I perceive a thousand forms in what remains as one? Why should I give this one a thousand names, when only one suffices?…For he is part of me and I of him, and we are part of You Who are our Source, eternally united in Your Love.
Shiva Sahasranama – The Thousand Names of God: