I was reviewing my dream journals from the past couple of years today. Dreams can be so elusive, troubling, magical, and downright weird, but it is during these times of review, especially of dreams long forgotten – ones that I had not pondered about for days, weeks, even months as I am prone to do – that new insights and a deeper understanding of the messages of the dreams become clear like water.
One very short, yet profound dream entry from almost exactly a year ago struck me. It is one of those very rare “dreams” if you can call them that, where I physically hear a voice say something to me just as I am waking up. It was the same confident female voice that all these audible dreams have for me, and all she said was:
The hard water is done; now it will be soft.
Water symbolizes our emotions, intuition, and the subconscious and unconscious. Water is a feminine element, connected to mother, mother goddesses, as well as the Moon. In my dream journal entries leading up to this one, there had been a water theme spattered throughout. Not enough for me to call them one of my dreams series, but just an on-going theme of water in the year and a half prior to the dream message above.
My dream water theme was generally about troubled waters and needing to find (emotional) safety: swimming to safety from an on-coming ship, getting caught in a riptide but able to swim to shore, avoiding a tidal wave coming towards the house (from dry land), showering in unsafe or too public of places, and running over water safely.
During the time frame of these water dreams occurring in my unconscious, water issues were also happening in my conscious physical life: the hot tub mysteriously lost all its water, the dishwasher piping leaked a couple of times, rain flooded in the basement, toilets several times got clogged and flooded excessively, the pond fountain kept stop working, and fish in the inside tank and in the pond were dying.
These troubled waters in my physical world and the dream world were reflective of the troubled waters I was deeply immersed in concerning healing from my mother while at the same time being the mother as her caretaker. Since dreaming: The hard water is done; now it will be soft. my life has shifted quite a bit. The role/archetype of mother/caretaker that I took on as small child has nearly dissolved, and though I still am very much a “mommy person,” it is with care taking I willingly take on, not that imposed upon me.
The waters in my life definitely began to settle beginning a year ago. I have not had any water themed dreams since the one above, and troubled waters in the home have all been fixed or have stopped. Neptune, the god of the waters, has and will be in his own sign of Pisces (the unconscious and dreamworld) for some time, as is Chiron, the Wounded Healer. A year ago Chiron was exactly crossing my Moon in Pisces, bringing to a head much of the healing taking place concerning my troubled waters. Coming across this dream that I had forgotten has pointed out to me that I can now safely and freely set sail across the calm seas.