I can’t believe it’s been nearly a year since I began posting some of my entries to my Butterfly Journal. My purpose for writing and creating this journal was to provide a tool to assist others in their personal growth, healing process, and spiritual transformation. Doing the journal myself has helped me to heal through a very challenging time in my life – after having freely chosen to completely end one life to start a new one from scratch, I had to delay my own rebirth for almost two years. If you haven’t been following along, you can learn much of the story in my previous Butterfly Journal posts here.
As difficult as it all was, I knew that I was in the midst of growing pains inside my own cocoon. I have seen through this entire process that I was going through a major healing and clearing phase. I had to return home to complete the healing I had been doing my entire life so that I could truly fly free as a butterfly, and through this entire process I have come to deeper and deeper levels of forgiveness for both myself and family members, especially my mother. Though I held no grudges, going through this journaling process of self-evaluation and deeper exploration of my psyche (the Ancient Greek word for butterfly!) I have found old layers upon layers of hurt, pain, and shame from my childhood that needed both healing and much forgiveness.
My blog friend Leigh at Not Just Sassy on the Inside was inspired (Thanks Leigh!) by some of my insights into her own healing process to do a two week Round of Forgiveness where different bloggers write about forgiveness in their lives. (If you are interested in participating, she still has some spots open! Click either of the two links in this paragraph.) I feel this past year of journaling has been a beautifully intense round of forgiveness for me. Though I could write a whole book on this (which I am actually 🙂 ) I will sum up my round of forgiveness here:
- I have forgiven my child-self for having felt ashamed for being hurt by neglect, abuse, and abandonment.
- I have forgiven myself for being mad at myself when relationships repeated those patterns.
- I have forgiven family members and past relations for their neglect, abuse, and abandonment for I understand that they were/are suffering too.
Through this painful yet beautiful process of healing and growing, along each monthly prompt and step of the way, it was freeing the psyche through forgiveness that opened the way for more layers of the cocoon to peel away. And now, the prompt for month twelve of Butterfly Journal: With love, we have opened ourselves up to joy and the beauty that is all around us, wherever we are. By now, no matter how painful and difficult it may have been at times, we can see the beauty in the process of spiritual growth. Our wings are strong now and we’re ready to flutter about like free spirits. Let’s share our joy! For the final month of this journey, FLY!
Firstly, I am offering to all of you the e-version of my poetry book: Flying From the Heart, A Collection of Poems on Loving and Being, today through the 9th, which can be downloaded from Amazon here. If you do not have Kindle, you can also download a Kindle App for free here!
Secondly, whoever first guesses my age (sorry, astrology friends who know my birth data, you are disqualified) will get a free natal chart reading, Vedic or Western. Just leave a comment below with your guess. To learn more about my sessions and readings click here.
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