With self-reflection, truth, and faith we have begun to clear our view of ourselves and of our lives. This clarity of sight brings awareness to our every-day living and being. We begin to see better not only what is going on around us, but also what we think, feel, and do; as well as how our thoughts, emotions, and actions affect others.
For the fourth month, observe yourself: what you think, what you feel, what you do, and the energy all of these put out towards others and into your environment. Are the effects positive or negative? You may notice that the more self-aware you become, the more positive you think, feel, act, and affect the world around you.
The past few years I have been doing a lot of root chakra healing and, as discussed in the last Butterfly Journal post, I have also been working on healing, embracing, and re-integrating my animus, or masculine side, through forgiveness, gratitude, and Love. I knew from my dreams that my animus had become exhausted and depleted, but it was from the awareness from my archetype work that I realized there was still more healing to be done here.
It has been interesting to observe myself and my life as I go through this process. As my root chakra feels stronger and stronger and as I embrace the masculine qualities of creation, giving, and assertiveness, amazing things have been expanding and manifesting in my life. My previously burnt-out masculine almost catapulted me to the other extreme in my life – to a stage of receptivity, dependence, nurturing, and constant care-taking, something my independent and self-sufficient self was very uncomfortable with. However, it was in this phase of being outside my comfort zone that I have grown, transformed, metamorphosed into the butterfly I am now, and hopefully I will be better able to keep my feminine-masculine, my yin-yang, in balance.
As I’ve mentioned in previous journal posts, 2012-2014 were the dark years inside the cocoon and now I have chosen to journey back into the darkness of the psyche to understand more, learn more, discover more, and heal more. The astrology happenings this month will likely help to bring to the light of awareness more that is hiding in the dark reaches of my unconscious. Neptune and Chiron have been dancing around my natal Moon in Pisces (this is a Western Astrology discussion), which is the sign of the unconscious and the psyche, for a few years now and to come. Jupiter and the Sun (and the Solar Eclipse) are in Virgo, the opposite sign from Pisces, and by October both Venus and Mars will be joining expansive and auspicious Jupiter in Virgo, casting their eyes, their light and influences onto my journey deep within.
I have recently come to the awareness of psychic cords, or more like little tendrils, that needed to be cut. I call these energetic leftovers. Like the leftovers in the refrigerator that get pushed further and further back and forgotten until we pull everything out to deep clean the refrigerator. I guess you could say I am deep cleaning my psyche during this second round through Butterfly Journal.